All this while, I thought that having many choices in life would make it easier for me to decide. I'll be able to just say 'No' to the options I favour less and say 'Yes' to best one. However today, I realised that it not as simple as that. Once you're given 2 thing which are so 'big' that both have their own pros and cons and you were asked to choose only one, that's difficult. What makes it even more difficult is that both decision involves my dream. I'll have to sacrifice one dream in order to get the other. This is one the things I fear most. Having the dreams right in front of me that I'm afraid that I would loose it.
These are my options:
1. Petronas oversea scholarship.
2. Shell local scholarship.
If I were to take Petronas, I'll be able to study abroad. That is one of my dreams. I've been studying hard in school to get straight A's for this. A scholarship to study abroad. It's not that I wanna be in oversea so much. It's just that I wanna get the exposure to live and learn at a country which is more advanced than Malaysia. Where the people have a different mentality compared to us. having the 1st class mentality. I wanted to change my self from within. So that I can be better person one day.
On the other side, I'll be studying in local university under Shell. But, I'll have a headstart in my salary when I work. I have a friend who's brother is working for Petronas. He's 25 y/o and is earning RM11000 per month. Cool aite? But he advised me to take Shell cuz his friend who is also an engineer aged 25 but working for Shell is paid almost 20000 per month. Yes. That much different.
But if I take Petronas, am I willing to let go of such big salary at my beginning of my career which will allow me to actually own a Ferrari Scuderia Spider at the age of 30 just so that I would be able to study abroad?
But if I take Shell, am I willing to let go of my dream to be a person with many exposure and better mentality just to get a big amount of salary at the beginning of my career? Am I willing to study at local university after all this time I've been spending countless of hours reading the text book to actually be better than others and get the oversea scholarship?
DAMN IT..!
I'm so stressed out today. I can't make my decision. This is the toughest decision I have to make so far.
God. Please help me. Show the better choice. I can't decide.
I've asked many people. My friend's brother, my friends' parents, my friend's relatives, my parents' friends, my seniors and also my parents but nobody could convince me which are better choice. Some said that Shell is the better choice. Some said that Petronas is the better choice.
I never taught that having so many good options but having to choose only one would be this stressful.
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To Fanah: Thx. Inspiring ke? I tulis je what comes from the heart. Sbb tu banyak spelling n grammatical error. But I da betulkan.
That's all for now. Later...
-Danial Kaoru-
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Mohd Omar Ong bin Mustapha Ong was a scholar of Petronas. He was offered scholarship in May 1989 to do A-level in the UK and to study in Oxford University. He has repeatedly defaulted from his obligation in the scholarship agreement with Petronas.
ReplyDeleteThe revelation of Omar Ong’s appointment as a member of the Board of Director of Petronas will mean that the Board of Direcor have honoured a scholarship defaulter with this appointment.
Omar completed his study and graduated from Oxford with a Bachelor’s degree in Politics, Philosophy and Economics. On February 16th, 1995 he joined Petronas as Executive. He later resigned and join Multimedia Development Corporation (MDC) on February 1st, 1997.
Omar was employed for nearly 2 years and at the time of resignation, had not fulfill his compulsory service. Petronas agreed to transfer the compulsory service to MDC being another Government Company..
His stinct with MDC lasted few months more than 3 years for he resigned on March 31, 2000. This is in breach of the scholarship agreement and he was informed by the Education Services Unit on June 2000.
Consequently, he was issued a Letter of Demand in January 2001 from the Legal Service Unit of Petronas. By September 2001, Lee, Hishamuddin & Co. was appointed to start proceeding against Omar. Judgement was obtained against Omar in February 2003.
After MDC, Omar joined McKinsey & Co, London, and operated in Kuala Lumpur. He later co-founded Ethos & Co. in February 2002.
In February 2004, he was appointed Special Officer 1 to the Deputy Prime Minister. A deed of settlement was signed in May 2005 and he was to serve the Government of Malaysia for an assigned period of 4 years 10 months. In the event of another breach of contract, he will be required to pay a settlement of RM120,000.
Omar resigned and rejoined Ethos & Co. in February 2006.
Appreciate you could publish this comment in your blog in order to get reactions from Omar Ong or Petronas to this revealed details.
This should serve to alert Najib that the man he agreed to be appointed as Director for Petronas is a Petronas Scholar who defaulted on his loan.
Najib's insistance on the Board of Director of Petronas to appoint Omar Ong will put them in a difficult position to breach their own internally long practised policies and will be expected to be given exception.
As another Petronas Scholar, I ask why should defaulter Omar be an exception?
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buat solat istikharah. :) i don't quite agree that they have first class mentality but yeah, they are undeniably better in certain aspects of life.
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